This is a email I sent to my friend this morning:
About lunch today - I think I am going to have to postpone. You probably think I am a real flake, but really I'm not - I promise.
Ham has been throwing up this morning. It isn't a big deal that he is throwing up, but now I am dealing with full blown autistic breakdown. He just has no way of dealing with something as different and scary to him as throwing up. So I have the head-banging, crying, clinging, dragging his forehead on the floor, freaking out if I am not touching him meltdown. I just don't see how I can take him out and stress him out like that. I am really having a hard time dealing with this whole autistic crap. Just when I think I can handle things we get thrown under the bus - AGAIN.
Help - I am being held hostage by autism.
Thanks for the Dr Pepper Bren! It helped me make it through the day.