self portrait tuesday
I have a problem. Well, really I have many problems. Oy vey do I have problems.
But I have one problem that I want to talk about. It hasn’t always been a problem, but recently it has started to bother me so it has become a problem.
I am addicted to Dr Pepper.
My day starts and ends with Dr Pepper. And there are
a lot a few sprinkled throughout the day.
And I like it. I really, really, really like it. I like the sound of a can being opened. I like the feeling of the first swallow. I like the taste. I really like the taste.
But I don’t like the fact that it’s bad for me. I don’t like the chemicals in it. I don’t like that I am consuming acid. I don’t like the empty, sugar filled calories. I don’t like that it has an ingredient that if I don’t have it my head hurts and I am grumpy.
And diet isn’t the answer. I don’t drink diet soda. Ever. I have a very personal and real reason to avoid drinking diet soda. It has to do with my little cancer tumor. So diet isn’t the answer.
I just need to finally make the decision to give it up.
That’s a hard decision for me to make.
Have you heard that smokers have a hard time giving up the ritual of smoking as much as the actual cigarette smoking. That’s how I feel about Dr Pepper. It’s such a integrated part of my day.
And the headaches. Don’t even get me started on the headaches. I have headaches on a daily basis. They are the type I can deal with. But the thought of withdrawal headaches…oh boy I hate those headaches.
And I have a
huge butt little weight issue and I know if I stopped drinking Dr Pepper I would have an easier time losing weight.
But I think I might be getting closer to quitting.
But I am not quite sure if I am ready.
Or the next day.
I promise I will let you know.
Because when I do I will need to be accountable to someone.
Because seriously I can’t trust myself around this little can.